wallflower

My insecurities will get the best of me and i seem to be always over my head. Don't you think it's funny how you'd think after a life changing opportunity like mine I'd be able to change? Be more outgoing. Be more friendly. Be more out spoken. Then i take one look at all the faces in front of me and i know, they are all silently judging me. Whether it be bad or good, i wish that all people were accepting like i was, to be honest and open minded about people's life styles and ethnicity. Is it weird for me to feel left out? or that i just don't know how to connect to anyone anymore? i feel like that i really try but i can't find the words to find some common ground. Perhaps I've made myself more into a wallflower.
Not only that, I'm really stressed out. i forgot the hustle and bustle of being in high school. I forgot all the drama. I've seen more insensitivity in the past two weeks than I've seen in my whole high school career. Perhaps i was just blind.