Get out of my head

I'm going through another cycle of insomnia, it's not like its a big deal. Just a loss of sleep. It's probably the result of anxiety and stress that's been trapped in my mind. It's just that.. well it's gonna sound stupid and redundant, but I've lost too many people this year and it just hurts. I can't have anymore people leave me. I have no clue what i'm doing when i go back to school. i only have like three people i can hang out with and for the rest of the people "who are there for me" haha, yeah right. fuck you. If you honestly expect that when i get back everything will change and go back to normal and we can be BFFs well it's not happening. Things changed and i'll never forget that. that people werent here when i needed them. You know, at first i thought that things weren't going to change but then i realized that they were and i was trying SO hard for them not to, and then i thought well when i get better things will go back to normal. Uh uh. It never will.